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Hey folks! <3

I have to make a HUGE announcement. I finally started to write again and I'm not talking about fanfictions. Those are merely a hobby and a way to improve my skills. Not, that I don't enjoy writing fanfictions, though. But what I'm talking right now is, that I eventually started to write my own stories again. Stories where everything from the plot to the scenery and characters are MINE. >insert evil laughter here<.
I used to write for a small publisher in the homoerotical genre, but that didn't satisfy me. SO, I became a beta-reader for the young authors who tried to get their stories published by that publisher and were refused. The publisher sent me dozens of stories so far and as I read through them, the need started to grow again. First it was just a spur, a short, angry thought. "I should start to write again, to show those kids, how it should be done!" Not that I am THAT confident in my skills. I just knew, I am at least better then them. But as the stories were piling up and I started t find more and more really talented newbies among those loads of half-ass-ed main-stream fails, the need to write was finally aroused to a point, where I just didn't cared anymore. I didn't care about my vow not to write seriously until I finished studying and just started. Oh, what a delight, what a pleasure it was! It wasn't that dirty kind of pleasure one has, when writing porn, which had grossed me out enough to stop writing porn at all, except for fanfictions. It was the sweet sensation, one only gets, when a stories is flowing out of his mind, filling all of ones senses, causing one, to forget the whole world at least until one finished the chapter. It's still a pretty unprofessional story and somehow still rough around the edges, but in my mind it's already developing, becoming clearer, fuller.... real.
At this state I just had to start again. I knew I won't be able to live without it again. I'm an addict and I don't care.
I had an anonynom, when I wrote porn. It's the same anonynom I use here and in every other community, I joined so far. But I don't think this anonynom fits my new stories well enough. It's the anonynom of a smut-writer, a creator of porn. Not that I am ashamed of that anonynom. I'm quite proud of the porn, I produced so far. It's just, that the me writing porn and the me... seriously writing are two completely different persons. So, I created a new anonynom, a new me. A me, that only exists to write.
That me is "Christie P. Elyod". I congratulate those, who find out the meaning behind this name. I just say as much as this name is created referring to three authors, which are my most favourite of a certain genre. "Christie" even has an own web domain: christiepelyod.weebly.com
Take a look sometime. I will upload some of my shorter creations there and will put up links to my longer works. And I start right now. Introducing to you the creation, the story, that originally caused the necessity ot Christie P. Elyod's birth:
 

Workname: "Red Moth and Blue Fire" (in short RMaBF)
 

For the beginning I will post its chapters here on my LJ. But as soon as I found out, how the best way would be, all chapters will be moved to the domain. Until then. you can still use the domain, to keep track of the chapters, since I will still post other things here on LJ, too. So if you want to know which chapter you haven't read so far. Go onto the domain and use the link to find the chapter. Of course you can also visit the domain, to read my short stories. There will be several short stories revolving around the characters of RMaBF, since every carakter there has its own little story to tell. <3

I'd be glad, if you could leave some feedback there, using the contact form on the homepage. Well then. That's it for now. The Prologue will be posted in the next entrie.

~Cherio folks!

Current Location:	Berlin
Current Mood:	cheerful

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Current Location:	Germany, Berlin
Current Mood:	bouncy
Current Music:	none

Manly it is about a simple murder trial, which lead to the "most radical shake-up of Japanese justice since the Second World War".

"The country’s first jury trial since the general public was ejected from the justice system by the country’s military government in 1943" was held in the Tokyo District Court.

Apart from the fact, that I'm personally pretty happy about this, since I think the world of the jury system, it also caused a quite non-political track of thoughts in me. Because I've heard something similar not so far in the past, actually. It was not in a newspaper or a bulletin, it was in a game: "Ace Attorney: Apollo Justice". When I read this article I thought: "Hey, didn't something similar happen in  that game? A simple murder trial, which shook up the whol justice system, because it was the first jury trial, since ages. I wonder, if Capcom took this trial as a reference.."

And then it hit me. The Game was actually published on Apr 12 2007. So, there was no way, tha Capcom could have used this trial from Aug 04 2009 as a reference. But how come that such a huge coincidence happened!?

There are only two posibilities:

1. Capcom had foreseen these events and used them in there game to be up-to-date even in 2009.
2. Capcom had used the game as an indirect criticizm to the Japanese justice system and was that succesful with it, that it caused an uproar big enough to force the gouvernment to change the system.

I don't know which posibility is the more alarming one...


 

Current Location:	Germany, Berlin
Current Mood:	enthralled
Current Music:	none

Well, I just finished my internship last week. Now, I'm anxious of what will follow...

First I will search for a job. I need money and the aprenticeship I want to start, starts in oct 2010 first. So all I can do, is searching for a job till then. Somehow I feel like in the calm before the storms. It's not because of my aprenticeship, but of some kind of premonition. Something will happen. I'm sure of that. Also, I'm sure it will change my current life dramatically. Whether to the better, or the worse, I don't know and that's what makes me anxious. I have the feeling I've used up all of my luck until now. I stumbled. I fell. I almost died four times until now. But always I was able to stand up again. Why is it, that I just can't give up. I can't lay down and let it be. Always. Always when I felt a change approaching something happened to my life, that threw me around like a leave in the wind. I don't know, where I will land this time. But I will handle it, like I always do. Just take it as a given and do the best with it. I honestly hope, that there's still a droplet of luck left over for me. Though I wouldn't complain if it isn't that way. After all I had so much luck in my life until now, it would be greedy, if I'd asked for more.

Current Location:	Germany, Berlin
Current Mood:	anxious
Current Music:	kenny chesney - better as a memory

Strawberries!!!!! >XD

Strawberries with whipped cream, with chocolate sauce, in a cake, with sugar, in milk, with other berries, in slices, in whole fruits,....

 

Current Location:	at home
Current Mood:	amused
Current Music:	In Un'altra vita

Live is a ladder
Neverending spokes ahead of you.
You keep climbing
Not really knowin', what awaits you.

You meet people
different faces on your way up.
Some join you.
Some are to slow to even catch up.

And everytime you step forward
You tramp down someone else.
There's no time to be a coward.
There's hardly even time to be yourself.
Always look at the future
And never dare to turn back.
When you look over your shoulder
You see corpses.
You've paid corpses as fee for your success.

I don't regret.
I keep chanting this prayer.
and put on another mask
on a crumbling layer.

I always smile,
Convincing myself, that I'm happy.
Ignoring my grief
I tell myself I should be happy.

And everytime you step forward
You tramp down someone else.
There's no time to be a coward.
There's hardly even time to be yourself.
Always look at the future
And never dare to turn back.
When you look over your shoulder
You see corpses.
You've paid corpses as fee for your success.

And everytime you step forward
You tramp down someone else.
There's no time to be a coward.
There's hardly even time to be yourself.
Always look at the future
And never dare to turn back.
When you look over your shoulder
You'd regret it.
  And join the corpses as fee for someone's success.

Current Location:	at home
Current Mood:	contemplative
Current Music:	Kristof Gavin Charakter Song